what goes on
Feb. 11th, 2001 02:01 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wickedfleaDidn't do a whole lot today. I got up around noon after having fucking CRAZY dreams all night long. I can't remember what was happening in them, but I know at one point that I was able to step back and observe what was going on, and I thought I'd realized something Important about life and death. Does something count as an epiphany if you can't remember it? At one point, I got up to go to the bathroom (my craziest dreams always come when I have to pee), and I was thinking that whatever the dream was about would make a fantastic screenplay. Maybe that's my problem -- my best ideas come when I'm sleeping.
I was feeling kind of depressed this afternoon -- not bad, but just the kind of feeling where you don't want to do anything. Pop dropped by to see if I wanted to get something to eat, and I didn't much want to, but I did. Got a steak in me and I felt much better. :) Tonight, I've been trying to deliver my bedroom from the state of squalor in which it's been for a couple of weeks.
I took one of my guitars (the Fender) to be worked on yesterday. It's getting new tuning pegs and a good set-up. About time, I guess -- I've only had the fucker for ten years, and it's needed intonating the whole time. I also ordered a bunch of shit for my Washburn -- the "mosh fiddle." I'm going to see if I can rewire it myself and get it set up better. I feel more comfortable working on it than on the other one, and besides, it's so fucked up that I'm embarrassed to take it to the shop. I love that thing, and I hope I can get it working better. Maybe I'll even start practicing again. :)
I'm listening to Neil Young's Harvest Moon. It's one of those very special albums for me -- it was the first Neil I ever heard (won it on the radio station), and despite being mostly acoustic and very country-twinged (then anathema to my metalhead ears), it just got right up next to me like few albums have. The funny thing is, I've been reluctant to listen to it for a few years because it can be so emotional to listen to. It makes me think of 1993 and '94, when I was still drinking, feeling the first onset of really dark, black depression, and just generally all fucked up. Since I've gotten straight (relatively speaking), I haven't wanted to get anywhere near that mindset again, so I guess that's part of the reason I don't listen to this album much. I'm really enjoying it right now, though.
I guess I should try to read something while I'm still fairly awake...
I was feeling kind of depressed this afternoon -- not bad, but just the kind of feeling where you don't want to do anything. Pop dropped by to see if I wanted to get something to eat, and I didn't much want to, but I did. Got a steak in me and I felt much better. :) Tonight, I've been trying to deliver my bedroom from the state of squalor in which it's been for a couple of weeks.
I took one of my guitars (the Fender) to be worked on yesterday. It's getting new tuning pegs and a good set-up. About time, I guess -- I've only had the fucker for ten years, and it's needed intonating the whole time. I also ordered a bunch of shit for my Washburn -- the "mosh fiddle." I'm going to see if I can rewire it myself and get it set up better. I feel more comfortable working on it than on the other one, and besides, it's so fucked up that I'm embarrassed to take it to the shop. I love that thing, and I hope I can get it working better. Maybe I'll even start practicing again. :)
I'm listening to Neil Young's Harvest Moon. It's one of those very special albums for me -- it was the first Neil I ever heard (won it on the radio station), and despite being mostly acoustic and very country-twinged (then anathema to my metalhead ears), it just got right up next to me like few albums have. The funny thing is, I've been reluctant to listen to it for a few years because it can be so emotional to listen to. It makes me think of 1993 and '94, when I was still drinking, feeling the first onset of really dark, black depression, and just generally all fucked up. Since I've gotten straight (relatively speaking), I haven't wanted to get anywhere near that mindset again, so I guess that's part of the reason I don't listen to this album much. I'm really enjoying it right now, though.
I guess I should try to read something while I'm still fairly awake...
